Bathsheba's Journal

My Lost Innocence

This is a story of shame, guilt, isolation and betrayal; a life shattered.  But it is also a story of healing, of undeserved love, of loyalty and of forgiveness.  It is my journal entry detailing a king’s sexual advances and his acts of betrayal and murder against my husband.  I write of my intensely painful emotions and of my self-absorbing regret; of months wallowing in a pit of “If only …” ’s.  I also write of my eventual triumph over these emotions; a triumph facilitated by having my focus turned away from my Self and towards my Lord.

This is a story of earthly consequences, undeserved blessings and Eternal Life.  Ultimately this is a story of wisdom, not man’s wisdom but Heavenly Father’s wisdom – wisdom which leads him to offer unlimited and unconditional healing through his forgiveness and other blessings – wisdom which leads him to discipline the ones he loves with earthly consequences so that they may receive his spiritual blessings of love and living eternally with him.